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New Moon in Pisces - March 17th 2018

Spring is imminent. You can feel it, you can smell it in the air. 

I am so ready to say goodbye to the grey skies or winter... longing for spring I turn my face towards each ray of sunlight, trying to catch the warmth and support. I have never needed it more than I do now.

It's like I have been waiting for this moment to start anew. And now, on the verge of spring, just before this New Moon, at the end of Winter, climaxing towards a fresh start, I am overcome with fatigue and grief. It's like my old Self is dying inside me, it's very intense and many old themes are coming up one more time.

The Moon is entering Pisces. On March 17th, 2018, the new Moon cycle will start in this watery sign of the unconscious mind. Pisces brings us vivid dreams, emotional states and connects us to the symbolism and language of the ancient mind. The rational mind can feel threatened by this fluidity, it's not able to explain what is happening and it will try to take control. This fight with your unconscious mind can take a lot of energy, and combined with the low energetic ebb of the New Moon, you can feel very tired and empty. You may also experience detailed, or very strange dreams. Don't be afraid of them, don't try to 'explain' the meaning, just let them wash over you like a wave that sweeps you clean. Let the waters of Pisces take away any old remnants, any broken dysfunctional survival habits of the ego. It is an old ragged coat that doesn't fit you anymore. 

My dreams have been dark and scary over the last week. Last night I watched my father die and a few days back I witnessed a church shooting in my dream while I was trying to save my daughters. Both situations are not very likely to happen, my father is healthy and vital, and in my country, there are gun laws and shootings are extremely rare. But I lived it in my dream so realistically, as if I knew exactly how it was going to happen. I must admit I was keeping an eye on the news that day.

It can be heavy to wake up from those energies, but being aware of my emotions helped me to release their charge quickly. You could use deep breathing to connect with your body to calm it down while connecting with your feelings as well. They are telling you something you might want to hear.

We all have dreams about death sometimes, and it's important to remember that our unconscious mind is speaking in symbols, and not to be taken literally. 

Death indicates transformation. 

And how profound is the transformation from Winter to Spring? As I find myself at the end of a two year long 'Winter' season in my personal life in the form of burnout, there is a lot happening under the surface. My old patterns are challenged every day, as they are already dead, and new habits are surfacing. However, my ego tries to hold on to every thread. This explains the feelings of grief, as the old story is falling away, making way for something new

Old wounds are healing and we will rise.

One of my coaching clients experienced it like she was dying herself, which can be a scary experience! But as I explained to her, only the construct of ego is dying, and she will rise up, out of the ashes, and her Spirit will bloom again, this time showing her her true colors. 

Hold on, let the waves crash down on you. They will take you to the shore where they will place you carefully and lovingly in the bright Sun. (Aries, a fire sign, is up next!).

Look up at the stars and not down at your feet. Try to make sense of what you see, and wonder about what makes the universe exist. Be curious.
— Prof. Stephen Hawking

As I was writing this Moon Report, the news of Stephen Hawking's passing reached me. Contemplating about transformation and death, I realized that, during his life, he died at least thousand deaths. Every time he lost another function of his body, due to his neurological disease called Amyotrophic Lateral Sclerosis (ALS), he had to change and transform, to reinvent himself in order to be able to breathe, speak and share his visionary ideas. 

Although (or perhaps, because?) he slowly became caged within a limited body, his mind was able to expand to an extent that is not comprehensible to many of us. And in doing so, he completely transformed our collective understanding of the Universe. 

The lesson we can learn from Prof. Hawking is, that when we are able to release our old Self, a thousand times over, we can reach for the stars. 

We are truly limitless.

Super Blue Blood Moon in Leo - 31st January 2018

On January 31st, 2018, a special celestial event is happening: a Super Blue Moon ... and a partial Lunar eclipse will coincide! 

Blue Moon means that it's the 2nd Full Moon in one month, in this case, in January. In March, this will occur again. The 3rd Full Moon in a season of four Full Moons is also called a Blue Moon (normally there are three Full Moons per season). Although it's a matter of calendar technicalities, it is also said that Blue Moons can create portals towards change, and are about making choices at a crossroad. 

In the summer of 2013, I participated in a nature-based course during a Blue Moon month (in August) and there were so many breakthroughs! 

The Moon is called a Super Moon when she is closer to the earth. She will be up to 14% brighter, larger in size and her energies will be enhanced accordingly. While the Full Moon phase is all about heightened emotions, vivid dreams and visions, and all of these can be much clearer. Dreams can be longer, and more detailed, complete ideas and visions can be received. You may experience mood swings that are more pronounced. Just know that your emotions are a compass, nothing to fear. In fact, it's easier to feel into what aligns with you then when you are feeling flat. 

The Lunar Eclipse is happening in Leo at the same time as the Blue Super Moon and this forms a powerful gateway into the next Eclipse season. The Moon will pass the Earth's shadow and will appear red (also called a Blood Moon). This can be seen in the early morning hours of the 31st in North America and in the evening of the 31st in Australia and New Zealand. 
Eclipses are always powerful, and when we are aware of them we will begin to see how they are portals for change as well. 

Leo is the sign of leadership, authority and shining your light in the world, in a playful way. This Full Moon will remind you. There may be reasons why you didn't step into your power yet. We all have blockages that keep us smaller than necessary. Use this Lunar Eclipse to shine a light on the shadows that are cast on your personal leadership. Which thoughts and beliefs do you have around stepping into the world on your own authority? It's time to release them in order for you to grow towards your fullest potential. 

While success has been defined before as getting rich, working hard, climbing the 'social ladder' fast, and striving for more, the paradigm is changing. It's time for a new definition of success. The old ways were leading to material gain and external polish, and it may seem attractive. But in reality, this way of living ultimately leads to burnout, because it demands us to push and achieve ALL the time. The new paradigm leads us towards pleasure, joy, and fulfillment. To do what you love, what you are meant to be doing here in your lifetime, to live your purpose and enjoying it, that's the new definition of success. 

Try to create things in your life that direct you towards joy and pleasure. What lights you up in this moment? What is the smallest thing that you can introduce into your life that helps you to shine from within? How can you choose love every day, every moment? Where can you introduce a playful mindset?

Start with that.

There are two gateways to change happening simultaneously (the Blue Moon and the Lunar Eclipse) and these energies are very present (Super Moon). 

It's time for choices.
Do you want to crash and burn? Or do you want to lead from love? 

Feel your emotions, receive the visions, dream the dreams. Be aware of the thoughts that are connected to how you feel and what is holding you back, and evaluate whether you are living from love or from fear, so that you are able to consciously decide what you want to express and attract. 

Let us step through the Super Blue Moon Eclipse gateway into the new paradigm.

New Moon in Capricorn - 16/17th January 2018

The next Moon cycle will begin January 16th/17th (depending on your location), 2018, with the New Moon in Capricorn.

The start of 2018 fell on a Full Moon on January 1st, which felt a bit awkward, because the energies of new beginnings and fruition and peaks didn't match very well, like starting your car engine while you are already driving 100 mph.

If your car is up to that, perfectly fine. But it's also possible that your engine blew itself, or came to a halt.

For me, these past two weeks into the fresh new year have a grinding energy to them. Although I have been productive and creating a lot, there is something going on in the background, a heavier, grounding, slowing down energy. That is the earthy Capricorn energy, turning energy into matter. Matter is slower than energy. Planets shifted into Capricorn and now the Sun and Moon are aligning in this sign too, it feels like things are barely moving... 

Is everything coming to a complete standstill? No, it isn't. 

Think about the flow of life as a musical piece... the music slows down, becomes softer and you can instinctively feel the pause coming... diminuendo and rallentando ... not knowing exactly what the musicians will be playing, but definitely anticipating the Grand Finale

In music, we find this pause mesmerizing. In life, we tend to degrade it as annoying.

Whenever the energy is so grounding and slow, you're invited to tune into the silence before the storm yourself. Find yourself in the beauty of the pause, anticipating a period of great action, speed, and progression. The final moments of 2017 didn't happen until now. This is the time we really close the doors on the past 6 months. We are embarking on new Eclipse season that will last from January until August 2018. A period of new things, growth, and expansion. 

This New Moon in Capricorn is the gateway to a new time of growth. 

Pay attention to your intentions, wishes, and goals. Capricorn is an Earth sign, and with so many planets moving into Capricorn, manifestation is imminent. 

Really use the days up to the New Moon to bring situations, projects to a closure, release the things that do not serve you. Make space for the new things to come in. Prepare yourself and your life for the Grand Finale.

Be very clear about your intentions. Re-evaluate your resolutions one final time. Maybe they didn't take off yet... why? Are they really yours? What are you truly longing for? What will make you truly grow and expand? 

Align your resolutions and intentions with your true Self and use this portal to 2018 to the best of your abilities. 

Capricorn will help you manifest everything, soon.

New Moon in Sagittarius - 17th December 2017

On December 17th (or December 18th in the early hours of the night when you live across the pond in North or South America) the New Moon will be in Sagittarius, the Archer. 

Sagittarius is a fire sign, and is all about freedom, truth, expansion, and directness, pointing the arrow at the goal and going straight for it.

I like to call him Sag. I feel like he is a close friend of mine because Sag is my Sun sign. I refer to Sagittarius as male because the energy of this sign feels that way to me, but of course feel free to picture a fierce half-woman-half-horse shooting fiery arrows if that feels more natural to you!

Although this masculine striving energy is natural to me, I have learned the hard way that when it is not balanced with receptive feminine energy, it leads to burnout. 

Sagittarius reminds you of your freedom. The archer gallops away whenever he/she wishes, shooting the arrow from the bow and going after it. The Sun is in Sagittarius as well, and this combination will enhance your lust for freedom even more. 

This time of year, approaching the Holidays, we can feel closed in, as we need to do so many things. Christmas shopping, planning for travel, sending Christmas greetings, having family or friends over at our house.... It can feel like a cage you can't escape

The caged bird sings with a fearful trill
of things unknown but longed for still
and his tune is heard on the distant hill
for the caged bird sings of freedom.

The free bird thinks of another breeze
and the trade winds soft through the sighing trees
and the fat worms waiting on a dawn-bright lawn and he names the sky his own.
— Maya Angelou

It's not easy to navigate the urge for freedom and expansion during these busy times when we feel pressured by societal (and familial!) expectations. The friction caused by 'need' and 'should' could lead to conflict and heated situations, especially around the Full Moon, when emotions are heightened. Be mindful of your communication or postpone it a few days to gain some clarity for yourself first. It is important to share how you feel, but keep in mind the other person's feelings too. Voice your needs, without putting pressure on others. 

To feel free yourself it is not necessary to put a chain on someone else. 

Sagittarius can be a little selfish, only seeing his own needs. He just aims his arrow at his goal, runs after it and that's that. Problem solved. This way he loses sight of easier solutions within closer reach. Stay in touch with your surroundings and look for alternatives when you are faced with a problem that is stemming from a discrepancy between your needs and the needs of someone else. Stay away from assumptions and conformities. A joint solution is closer than you think when you communicate clear, direct and open

Sagittarius is always searching for the Truth, the Whole Truth, and Nothing but the Truth. Over the last few months, uncovering uncomfortable truths and secrets was ongoing business. You might have seen that in the news (#metoo, politics, choosing corporations over environmental issues), your personal situation, at work, with relationships and more. 

Right now, the cosmic energies are lining up with the center of our galaxy, the Galactic Center, bringing a Universal Truth to the surface.

This Universal Truth calls you to evolve to a new way of living, that is in alignment with your Soul.

You mail feel friction or discomfort when you are living out of alignment with your Soul's truth. There are so many people living lives out of alignment nowadays, rushing and pushing, causing extreme stress, burnout, and total numbness. 

By listening to your inner voice, you will be able to make decisions that are in alignment with your Truth that is already vibrating through all the layers of your Being. When you don't listen and act on it, symptoms arise. I invite you to be open to the possibilities, to let go of conformities and beliefs you picked up along the way that keep you out of alignment. Your inner voice knows your Truth. Sagittarius will point the arrow there. 

If you fight it, you will feel it. 

 

New Moon in Scorpio - 18th November 2017

I am a bit behind on my blog because I was down with the flu for a week! However, this Moon Report was sent out to newsletter subscribers on November 17th and reached them in time.

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On November 18th we will encounter the New Moon again. The Sun and the Moon will both be lined up in Scorpio. The Moon is not visible ('Dark Moon'), the nights are longer, the November weather is gloomy (at least, here it is) and the sign of Scorpio is also calling us into the Shadows... This New Moon is a time of turning within again, but this time, we need to go even deeper. 

Oh no... I hear you say... no more. Please bear with me, while I explain why this is necessary (there are going to be true gems!).

We all have a few things about ourselves that we really don't like. Traits, thoughts, feelings, behaviours, and so on. Some of this is conscious, but most of it is not. It's pushed into the darkness, shoved under the covers when we were a child. 

It is important to discover these Shadow parts about yourself. Why? Partly, because when you are not aware, you act from them in an uncontrolled way. This side of you has been pushed away so deep that it only surfaces with tremendous force, like a volcano. And usually we don't have control over our volcano eruptions... and these forceful, destructive reactions cause us and others pain and problems. It seems to come out of nowhere, catching us by surprise, and it is often called 'getting triggered' (we see it all over the internet). Sometimes, we already know that we are triggered by certain things, but we still don't see them coming (because our subconscious is very likely to keep the warning signs out of sight, it's a yay or nay system), and when it happens, and we lash out, it's very difficult to take responsibility for it. Looking for external causes for our pain is easier than to look within. Often, we are ashamed of our reactions and they are pushed away into the unconscious again, leaving the energetic scars and broken connections behind.

Why is this happening? 

It's the ego trying to protect you. There have been times in your life, most likely when you were a child, where something very painful happened. This can be anything, big or small, but usually, it has something to do with not being loved or seen or validated. And the negative feelings arising from that are so painful, that the ego decided to make it unconscious, to protect you. Which in itself seems like a noble thing to do. This works for quite some time and is important, but when you are an adult, you don't want to be ruled by your protective ego anymore, because it keeps you in shackles. The ego keeps you safe, small, invisible, to protect you. And when you have to make big decisions, around your life's purpose, your relationships, your work, your ego creates fear to prevent you from making these decisions. It wants you to survive and not leave your job to go for a better career, not break up but stay in an unbalanced relationship, not take a chance on life.... And you keep walking in circles, continue to feel unworthy, small, unlovable... The pain of what once happened to you will resurface, eventually. And then, it's not pretty. It's the volcano thing. 

Recently, I was made aware of something I never thought of, but I think is very important to share. 

"There are dark shadows and there are light shadows."

We all have our DARK shadows (things we see as negative and to be ashamed of, or feel guilty about), but we also have LIGHT shadows. The LIGHT shadows are the things that make us unique, valuable, lovable, great human beings, like creativity, intelligence, beauty, love, abundance, and so on. The things all human beings are born with when we come into our body. Why would these have to be pushed away into the shadows?? Because there have been times, where we instinctively knew, that when we expressed our true Self, we were not safe and that it would be better, safer, that we kept it hidden. That's the tragedy of the Shadow.

The beauty is, that when we dare to dive deep, when we are willing to face whatever DARK shadows we have, we will also find our way back to the LIGHT shadows, and we can bring them to the surface again. And make choices from our Soul.

And that is exactly what this New Moon in Scorpio is asking of you. The breakdown of the protective shell of the ego and the transformation from Self to Soul will be absolutely worth it. 

When you uncover your Shadows, you'll find the Light within.